Wow...ceiling fans...

Today was D Day. The first day back at work after almost 3 months off. It was probably one of the hardest days of my life. This morning I literally felt like my heart was breaking. Life is just not fair. And I hate it. I'd sit at my desk and even just looking at her picture brought me to tears. Everyone at work was very understanding, but there are only so many times you can answer, "How's the baby? Is she good? I bet today is really rough," with out breaking down. All I wanted was to be at home with her, watching her watch the ceiling fan go round and round. Granted, we are very lucky that my husband is able to stay with her during the day, while I'm at work, and her Nana watches her after he leaves for work. But it's still a major bummer. Everyone tells me it will get easier, but I just don't know how ever leaving my baby for the whole day could get any easier. She's the most precious thing to me in the whole world. As soon as I walked through the door, I just burst into tears. I've held her all night long, and I just dread going to bed, because I know I'll have to start all over tomorrow with this whole heart-breaking process. I know we are both working to provide for our family, and to be able to give her all the pretty things, but is it really worth it? Maybe I'm not meant to be a "career girl" after all. I guess I'll just have to wake up and take it one day at a time...but I really don't want to. To all the stay at home Mommies, you are so blessed! You have a hard job, raising and taking care of your family at home, but be thankful that you are able to do so! To all the working Mommies-You also have a hard job. Trying to balance work with life is tedious. I guess I'll just have to wake up and take it one day at a time...but I really don't want to. Because right now, all I want to do is rock my baby to sleep.

Which is exactly what I'm going to do.

How We Roll...

She rolled over on Saturday! Whoo hoo! Saturday afternoon I was in the bathroom getting ready, and the hubby had her laying on the bed, talking to her. She just kept pushing and pushing, and eventually, she flopped right over! Hooray!

T-1 Day until I'm back in the rat race...

Gotta Love It!

The weather today is fabulous! I love Spring in Ky...except when we have tornado warnings...yeah, girl with no basement=paranoia...

I believe tomorrow I'm going to go try to find some new clothes for work...really, I don't have a choice! I think Baby A will do just fine with her Daddy...he'll be on his own this week anyway when I go back to...w.o.r.k. Boo. I'm sure it will be the hardest thing I've ever had to do...I'd really just like to get it over with...

It will be nice to have some extra cashflow though, since the past 4 weeks Nick has been the only breadwinner! LOL

Hopefully tomorrow I can post some pretty pictures of pretty new clothes. Whoo hoo.

Hi ho, hi ho, it's back to work we go...

D-day is next Wednesday, the 29th, and I've got a LOT to do over these next couple of days...

Let's see:

• Manicure/pedicure. For sure.
• Clean the house.
• Clean the car/perform regular car maintenance. {Thanks honey!}
• Shopping-I need at the very least one pair of black pants, and a couple of tops. That fit. Since I'm still too, ahem, large, for my pre-pregnancy clothes, and too small for my maternity clothes. Good grief, it's so annoying!
• Sweet pictures of my baby to take back to my cubicle. {Try to pretty it up a little.}
• Hmmm...I think that's it.

• OH! A box of Kleenex. {Yeah. That about wraps it up.}

It's called...b.a.l.a.n.c.e.

Balance: The process of juggling. Many things. {that's not Merriam's definition, either. Just mine.}

Something I've been contemplating lately...seeing as how I have about another week and a half left of maternity leave, unless I take the 1 week left that I have available through FMLA, until I go back to *work.*

Ugh.

Don't get me wrong, I love making money, (and spending it), and I love the people I work for and with, but I have no idea how I'm going to manage it all...the house, the husband, the baby, the job, the life, my life. It's a tad overwhelming, actually. Something I dread...I guess at the beginning of the week, I'm going to have start trying to get into bed before 11pm, and waking up at first light, since that is what I'm going to have to do for work. It actually kind of makes my stomach turn. I know I should be thanking my lucky stars that I have a great job in this economy, but it just doesn't make my heart go pitter pat like that baby asleep in her bassinette does.

Man, I wish we could just win the lottery. Boo.

Any tips?

Crap...

Literally. Only, I believe at 8am this morning, I used another word...As in, "I've got s*** on my sheets!" {Sorry Mom.} Lordy, that girl can let 'er fly! In mid-diaper change, no less...What a nice wake-up call...so out came the "Shout" and to the couch I went...looking back now, it was probably pretty funny...but not so much at 8am. Especially with the hubbly snoozing away...Of course, after that exclamation, he was up too...and he changed the bed sheet for me. How nice. We took a trip across the hall to her room, and as I was in yet ANOTHER mid-diaper change, she still wasn't finished! Oh, Lord!

That was my morning at 8am.

I can only imagine my mornings in two weeks when I go back to work...nice.

Wow

I'm actually embarrassed that it has been over three months since my last post...yikes. My one reader (my lovely cousin, Vanya) must think I've fallen off the face of the earth w/ no posts...LOL. What in the world have I been doing since then that I've been too busy to make a measly little post...oh wait. I had a BABY! Yeah that must be it...

{Baby A and I after her first "real" bath at home...no more sorry sponge baths for you, dear!}

So, in honor of her debut, I've decided to revamp the B's blog into the "Adventures of Mommyhood." No longer is it just the husby and I...oh no. She is beautiful, and wonderful, and we love her and wouldn't trade her for the world! So, I guess this is my first "new" blog post! {cheers!}

Welcome to our new little world!